Future

Hello everybody,

time flies so quickly and before you even realise you'll be an adult with many responsibilities.
I'm actually getting there in the next couple of years and I can't say that I'm ready for it.

If everything goes according to plan I'm getting my "Abitur" in a year and two months. That's sooooo crazy. And then who knows what will happen.

I have expectations and dreams that I want to live but no one can guarantee me that they are going to happen.

First of all, I want to go to New Zealand to do an internship and a language course as well as doing some travelling whilst being there.
Then I want to go to university. The thing is the subject I've kinda chosen is not really something you can study a lot in Germany but I've found a uni in the UK that has a good offer so I'm trying my best to get in there.
And after that, I definitely need a job.
But I don't know if that's going to happen... so all I can do is hope for the best.

Being honest that is not the only thing that I fear. I don't know what's going to happen with me and my friends.
I know that I won't be friends with all of them after school but there are a few I really want to keep in touch with. We are all going our separate ways, leaving to conquer the world.


We will leave people and places behind us. Find new ones that we love. That's just the way everything in life happens.

If I think about my future I don't see anything. It's just a big black hole. But that's ok because everything shapes eventually.
Some things may work out and some won't.


I don't really like to think about the future. It scares me but also fascinates me. We all have to face it. If we want to or not.
I can't believe that it's already 2017. I mean I remember being in primary school thinking that it's still so long until I do my "Abitur" in 2018. The truth is it's not that long to go anymore.

I get this feeling every year. In January I think "the year is so long and I've got plenty of time" but at the end of the year I just sit here and think "what has happened to the year, how is it already over again?"
But that's not everything. With every year of my life that has passed everything got quicker and faster.

I'm sorry that this post is all over the place.

What are your plans for the future?

Love, Steff xx